I won the war!

You have no idea how much this strikes fear into my heart. It's the kind of fear that paralyzes and makes you shake. There is a specific reason I'm afraid but I wont go into that here, we'll just say that I wasn't scared as a kid.
Yesterday I had to do my antenatal blood test. So for the last 2 weeks it has been on my mind, always telling myself I could do it! There was good reason to think I wouldn't because with Aus I simply could not do it, even though I tried 8 separate times, with sedation and all. Each time just totally melting down- they eventually stopped trying because stress was really bringing me down. It was so horrible to know I couldn't even do it for my own child.
So this time I was determined to do it. AND I DID! Luckily my sister-in-law is a nurse and she did it at her house for me. So after several mini melt downs and getting nearly there about 5 times- I finally just told her to do it and grit my teeth. As soon as the needle got in, the vein collapsed and she had to dig around for while to find it again. So I really was a big brave girl and I'm pretty sure I deserve a lollypop!
Usually I wouldn't post something like this but I'm just very proud of myself. I have never overcome such a crippling fear before and now I feel lighter than air!

As a side note, I was thinking about new designs and I would like to know your opinion- would it be worth exploring a sterling silver bookmark with stamped dangling disks? I don't know if people would want them?